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May 24, 2022Liked by File411

Please don't apologize to us, you are grieving the loss of a dear friend. We all handle our grief differently, and given the circumstances, I can't imagine what you're going through. If you don't post for a few days, we're not gonna throw up our hands and grumble...instead, I firmly believe we will hold you close in our thoughts. Much love Filey!

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Thank you — I genuinely feel bad that I’m not my normal self and I’m mindful that clawing my way out of the darkest hole I’ve experienced in my short lifetime has been challenging. I’ve moved on from profound sadness to seeing red mad and now I’m stuck on accepting he’s no longer here. But in the past four weeks I’ve caught myself reaching for my phone to call him —but then I remember shortly after his death I called his office line and I heard my own voice. I’m pretty sure he’s looking down on my yelling for me to “deal with it” and to not be consumed in the never ending Ocean of grief. Somedays I can keep my head above the waves of grief but other days it’s like a rogue wave that knocks me flat on my ass…

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Yes, absolutely!

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You owe us absolutely nothing, especially an apology. The light you shine on injustice, receipts and all, is a blessing to many. I hope your work is rewarded some day, bigly.

love and light sent to aid in your healing. Thank you

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💔

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