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I am really sad for you. There are no words of comfort to offer. I can only offer love and support to let you know I understand. Take the time you need. Regarding the leaked memo, the media should highlight all of the dystopian language and hardships that will befall all of the women in our country. The ramifications are heinous. Plus, women being forced to have unwanted children, guarantees them leaving the workforce. Nobody should have to make this choice. Women have been clawing for benefits of childcare and maternity leave for decades. Most childcare for most working women is unaffordable. Wealthy women can hire help or fly across country to get an abortion in a state where it’s legal. This awful decision keeps some women in poverty. Reproductive health is more than abortion. It’s the right to choose for oneself. Not to mention the state where the dumbasses are denying science and trying to force doctors to reipmlant after ectopic pregnancy where it would ensure death to the mother. These laws would give way to questioning every miscarriage & overzealous prosecutors could go after women. Giving fetuses personhood could set mothers & doctors up for criminal charges or worse, add expenses to a woman after miscarriage of forcing her to bury her unborn fetus. All of the women with complicated heartbreaking pregnancies that aren’t viable, will be forced to endure unimaginable pain. It’s all too much to grasp. We can’t assume that the morning after pill or even the abortion pill will be available. We can’t assume birth control will not be targeted. We should legislate every man have a vasectomy. Problem solved. It’s much less invasive than what women go through. I loved Biden’s statement and Pelosi’s.

I’m sorry for your pain. I hope the best for you. ❤️

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I will not insult your heart or intellect by saying it will get better. The grief will remain, coming in different forms. As your mind and heart recognize this, it will get easier to deal with. You can not blame yourself for 'not seeing the signs,' nor the fact if you or anyone could have stopped it. The person that you have known for and was in your life for 14 years left a wonderful piece of themselves, in you. You and your relationship with that person is the best part of life and of both of you. In that circle of life, there is sadly death, but, what we all forget is that (at least this is my opinion) we dont really die in the absolute finality of the word. We return to the best and most pure form of ourselves, our souls; and that is in the form of love (until our souls get reincarnated).

Sending healing thoughts to your heart and soul to you and your family.

After last night, we all need it for the road that lies ahead.

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

The unwitting advice giving during a time of grief is the most offending. My mom passed away on my anniversary in March. I purposefully withdrew to process my feelings of extreme loss but thankful her suffering had ended and how to move forward. I had someone tell me that I needed to get out more. I think my husband was more upset of the audacity of a casual friend giving advice. He has been my rock to let me be in silence.

I hope you are surrounded by people who give you the time and space to grieve.

You will be in my thoughts as you navigate through your grief.

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

I am so sorry for you and your families losses.

As a survivor of suicide (those of us who are left to try and figure it out) you are absolutely correct, time doesn't heal us, I will forever ask my self all of the time what if could have done something,

Still asking and missing my 18 year old brother, 35 years later.

Please take care of yourself.💔

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

Condolences on ur family losses, I’m 8 years out and new aspects of grief are still rolling in. Peace

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

I’m so sorry for your tragic loss. Sending my sincere condolences. Please take care of yourself as you grieve

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This opinion by Alito is an abomination but that’s what the Republicans are these days especially. I’m sorry for the loss of people who are dear to you. Take whatever time you need to mourn but don’t blame yourself for not catching the signs. People in despair are good at covering up their pain until they can’t. Big hug.

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

Prayers for you, your family and friends!!!

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

I am so so sorry for your loss xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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May 4, 2022Liked by File411

So sorry for your loss. You will probably always wonder if you could have said or done something different/more that would have changed the outcome, but from my memories from the 2000s, they always showed a happy outward attitude to everyone.

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May 4, 2022Liked by File411

I am so very sorry to hear this my dear. I've been there too. It's difficult. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong my friend.💗

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Before I can read I have to stop and send you my love and deepest condolences. Someone really helped me once by comparing grief to a window that opens on its own and when it opens just cry and then the window will close until next time. There is no controlling it or reason. I just went with it and it helped to not fight those moments. Big gigantic hug.

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I’m so sorry Filey, grief is never easy & we all process things differently. I lost 2 friends to suicide years ago & I still can’t wrap my head around it all. (2 separate incidents). There is no easy fix or words to help make it better. All I can offer is big hugs & tell you that you need to do what is best for you. Take one day at a time & don't put any expectations on yourself because of other people. Shock & grief do not come with a set of rules about how to deal with them. We are here for you if you need to vent, but don’t worry about us. We understand you are going through a rough time right now. Please take care of you & know we are thinking of you during this difficult time. ((((Hugs)))))

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

I'm so incredibly sorry for your family's losses. I agree with you on the "time heals" BS; wounds can ruin lives.

I believe this is another 9-11 moment, and we'll remember where we were when it came down. This fascist MF Alito delights in it. We all better vote vote vote like stoats in November and always 😡😡😡😡

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

Sending my deep sympathy for your loss. I can attest to the path of grief being one each individual travels in their own way. There is no ‘snap out of it’ or ‘time heals’, not for me anyway. It is 20 years on Friday since my love and my kids’ dad crossed to the other side. We go on and thrive despite the grief and unbelievable loss.

My hope is that your path is surrounded by comfort and love. Please know that your beautiful videos offer me a daily respite. You can never tell where that peaceful breath will come from.

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May 3, 2022Liked by File411

So so sorry....no words. <3

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